There You'll Be

I heard this song while I was putting away the houses from my Christmas village today.  Seemed very fitting:

When I think back on these times
and the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to get to have you in my life
When I look back on these days
I'll look and see your face-
You were right there for me

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
in my heart there will always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
and everywhere I am- there you'll be
and everywhere I am- there you'll be

Well, you showed me how it feels to feel the sky within my reach
and I always will remember all the strength you gave to me
your love made me make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
and I want to thank you now for all the ways
you were right there for me
you were right there for me    for always

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
in my heart there will always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
and everywhere I am- there you'll be
and everywhere I am- there you'll be.......

Super Bowl Sunday

We had the gang over to watch the game.  Well, who am I kidding???  We had the gang over to eat!!!  I've been so good with this weight lose game and my goal was to lose another 1.4 pounds this week to make my total 10 but I think I blew it today.  I've eaten more than I could have imagined.  Oh, well.  Back to tracking tomorrow.
Work has been pretty stressful.  There have been a few union issues, a new teacher accusing a grade-level collegue and the principal of harassement and on top of all that my student teacher came.  I haven't had a moment to myself at work in weeks.  But tomorrow should be a quieter day.  The student teacher is sick and won't be ocming in.  The other issues have settled down a little (at least for me) so I'm looking forward to a quiet day.
I'd like to say my grieving is getting better but that's just not the case.  I miss Flutie every day.  There hasn't been a day yet that I haven't cried.  And sometimes it just comes out of nowhere and wham- tears are rolling down my cheeks.  I found this awesome pendant on etsy that I'm going to order for myself.  It's a custom pendant with his name on it with a paw print.  I'll be ordering that later in the week- as soon as I'm sure there's enough money in the old checking account.  Anyway, maybe I'll feel that he's still with me- even if it's around my neck!  Who would have thought a dog could wiggle his way into my heart so strongly that I'm missing him like he was my best friend? 
Well, I'm going to turn in for the night.  Actually, I'm going to read for a bit.  I'm reading The Forgotten Garden by Kate Morton- great book.  Then it will be lights out!!  Here's to a better week.......

Saturday January 8th

Really missing Flutie today....very sad...three weeks today....

Back to work!

Today was the first day back to school since before the holidays.  The kids are kinda crazy- they are so used to doing and saying whatever they want whenever they want to so it's an adjustment just to get them back in the groove.  A few more days and we'll have them back!!
I've done pretty good eating -wise today.  In fact, it's almost 8:00 and I still have 5 points left!!  What to eat, what to eat???  I may have a few leftover sugar cookies with my coffee!!
Tomorrow is the big day.  In the morning, I'm having a bone density test and my mammo and then in the afternoon I'm going to Mercy Hospital for a stress echo test.  I'm really not looking forward to that one.  They give you something to speed up your heart while they observe it through a sonogram- or so that's what I've been told.  I'm not liking the idea of my heart racing while I lay on a table and they move that sensor around getting a view of my heart.  I know, I know.  it's not going to be that bad but......I'll let you know tomorrow.  Keep your fingers crossed they don't find anything out of the ordinary.

New Year's Day- more

Well, I spent the day eating everything in sight- under the guise of getting rid of it before tomorrow.  I watched Eat, Pray, Love by myself this morning.  Great movie- better book.  I finished my scarf and another dishcloth.  Then, I started a baby sweater for my godchild to give as a shower gift.  The pattern is Baby Sophisticate by Linden Heflin that I found on Rivelry.  I'm using Vanna's  Choice in Dusty Purple.  So far I'm liking it.  I finished the front up to the garter stitch for 7 rows and BO.  Tomorrow I'll start the sleeves.
The kids came over tonight to play a few games and, again, eat all the food in sight!!  We had a nice time.  Tomorrow morning, daughter #1 and I have our first official weight-in.  This is the only time I can remember being relaxed about weighing in!! Ha!!  Next week I'll be stressing!!

Happy New Year!!

If you're actually reading this- Wow!!  This is my first ever attempt at a blog.  My hope is that it will continue to inspire me to be a better person in this new year.  First of all, I'd like to lose at least 20 pounds.  I think that's pretty realistic.  I don't know when it happened, but I suddenly weigh as much as I did when I was eating for 2!  I don't like it at all- I look crummy, I feel crummy....So, I'm going to try my best to lose some of me.
Another resolution (I hate that word) maybe we should call it a New Year's Goal instead- is to live more frugally- cut and actually use coupons, make my own laundry soap and other cost cutting ideas.   Eating out less-which actually leads to another goal- eat better.  With my trusty favorite cookbook in hand, I'm going to choose bi-weekly meals, complete the grocery shopping list, use the coupons I cut out of the Sunday paper and head to the grocery store.  That shopping trip will happen on Friday nights- right after the Weight Watcher meeting daughter #1 and I will be attending weekly.  See, all my goals kinda tie in together.  I'm hoping that that will lead to success.  Time will tell.